Inhibitions

There are things which I wanna do, things which I don’t wanna do… Without anyone shouting out the restrictions/inhibitions to me… But alas, I am now “married”, “working woman”, “into a professional world” and blah blah… Few days back I got a forwarded mail whose synopsis was “don’t think, but do whatever you want to do. Many people spend their life in thinking whether  they should actually do it and waiting for someone else to do the thing for them or offering them the apt situation”.

Two and a half....

It's been two and a half months since I came to this second largest city of Maharashtra (as everyone says!!! Though I have my doubts between Pune and Nagpur), and I have realised one very important "characteristic" of this city and that is-"Nagpur is a culturally DEAD city.." Period. Though it is a f***ingly RICH city with 3 duplex bungalow type houses out of 6 at every street, road, lane, bylanes, people here are more fashion conscious than being health conscious. People here prefer investing in properties, rather than buying good food, enjoying their lives. Even the clerical staff of my office are millionaires and billionaires, yet in appearance they are worse than the people who have roadside hotels selling "sobji bhaat for 12 INR" and "dim bhaat for 15 INR" and "mangsho bhaat for 25 INR" in Kolkata....!!!!!

Dubious "sanity"...

Was listening to 25 minutes by MLTR and again was thinking and having a flashback of all sorts… I have a serious problem.. Whenever I listen to songs of this sort, I start having flashbacks and get depressed for no reason… Living alone is a very uphill task. You start thinking all weird things and even the minute”est” details, quarrels come flooding in your mind. & then you have mood off for the rest of the day, week or even month….!!!!

This is again that time of the year when I was supposed to go to Kolkata but unfortunately I am at Nagpur. What “great” idea dawned upon me I don’t know (I’m still dubious about my sanity..!!!) that instead of getting meself a ticket to Kolkata I was adamant about going to Mumbai, that too during Durga Puja…!!!! Feel like kicking myself…!!!! I’m getting more and more jealous reading all the “wonderful”, “lavish” FB statuses about Durga puja, how they are pandal hopping, how they are going to have dinner at “that” restaurant, when they will be meeting at “that” particular place and all “bullshit” (to me for the time being…!!!)

I promise to myself that this is the 1^st ever and LAST ever when I am missing Durga Puja, the festival which defines my ETHNICITY, my CULTURE, my BONGNESS…

LAST TIME EVER…..

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Blogging is a good thing. Good thing because it keeps you occupied. & for a girl/lady/woman (??) like me, it is best to remain occupied. As some people say/recommend. For me blogging is simply writing into a virtual journal/diary.. Often I wish to share my erratic posts with “my” readers (do I have any??? LOL..) but then again I realize that my blog is nothing except a private/virtual diary for me into which I make some entries, intelligent/worth reading/bogus or whatever adjective you want to categorize it into… ;) ;) ;) I have absolutely no qualms about it.. Of late, I have become very lazy, some happening things have happened in my life.. Some things I wish shouldn’t have happened, some I realize I have hastened in my “decision taking” power (if I have any...!!!) , some…… (let’s not talk about it…!!!!)

It’s 01.32 am and my eyes are drooling and yet here I am writing utter nonsense just for the sake of filling up my blog…!!!

Ciao…!!! ;) ;)

Good night and don’t let my stupidity get the better of you… ;) ;)

Peeping

The Carpenters and Lionel Ritchie

Today was among those days when I am feeling extremely down, apparently for no reason (or maybe there IS a reason but as I proclaim to the world that I give a damn, but inside I do feel bad)… Ever since I returned, I don’t know why but I suddenly thought of downloading songs by “The Carpenters” and listening to them… A huge of memories came flooding into my mind without even my wanting it-be it beautiful or bitter memories… The songs made me realize that yes indeed, I have travelled a long path since my school days when if a friend stopped talking to me I would silently go to my room and cry myself hoarse… Listened to “Stuck on you” by Lionel Ritchie and had a flash back of my Class VII days in AG Church.. 

How much I miss those days; when I first started learning slangs, “Bengali khistis”, had “puppy love” or “infatuation” or “crush” or what should I term it now I don’t know, when I was into my teens and entered the adolescent stage, when Mom’s words were like “why the hell is she wasting her time when she knows I’m not listening to her??!!!!”, when everything I did or thought seemed right, when I had so many unfulfilled dreams and the stupidest notions about “love” and “living happily ever after” as was shown in typical Bollywood movies.. It was the time when we were going gaga over Hrithik Roshan as his first movie “Kaho na pyar hai” released and he was looking HAWT….!!!! It was the time when I first started listening to English songs, starting off with “My heart goes sha la la la la” by Vengaboys and Backstreet Boys and Enrique.. Listening to English songs at that time gave you a higher edge than the others… Others looked up to you as if you have become a demi god.. :P :P

It was the time of getting innumerous proposals from the guys of our class and from our seniors… Though I always showed off that I didn’t care, but deep within I was jumping with joy that yes, even I got proposals too… :P :P (Some of the guys are pursuing till this now and flirting as usual..!!! ) As the proposals came, friendships were put at risk when both the boys fell in “love” with the same girl… L L The girl was then at a dilemma whom to keep as “just a friend” and who would her “boyfriend”… Innumerous scandals, “jaundice cases” and what not……

Thanx “Carpenters” and Lionel Ritchie….. You made me nostalgic…. I miss those days…………….

The job- my 1st ever...

Well, here I am.. This is me… There’s nowhere else on earth where I would be… :P :P

Don’t worry folks.. This is just a line from Bryan Adams’ song “here I am”.. & oh yes, I do want to be found at beautiful places on this forever warming planet of ours… He he.. I am back after a pretty long hiatus. Well, just didn’t “remember” to update you my readers with what all has/had happened in my life for the time period when I didn’t blog away, as was my usual habit..

A lot of things has REALLY happened in my life, the most happening and important of all is ME getting placed at Coal India Limited on 18^th November, 2011- 2 days before my birthday… This is till date my greatest birthday gift in my life. I really really thank the Almighty and my family for their continuous blessings and support. & also, some of the not so important people (just joking :P :P :P) whom I would choose not to name as they know what hierarchy of importance they hold in my life… Thank you for being with me and accepting me with my atrocities and stupidity and short comings…

It has been quite an ordeal ( yeah really!) from 16^th-18^th November 2011. Had to appear for a written test conducted by Western Geco in which unfortunately (or fortunately?? ) I could attempt 5/6 questions by myself out of 19/20 questions and some other questions got a little help from a geophysics guy… :) :)  But all the while my mind was on how would my GD and PI go the next day in CIL.. My goodness…!!! I just couldn’t sleep since 16^th November, 2011.. Woke up in the wee hours of 18^th November, 2011, dressed well in my formals and didn’t carry my blazer with me (had to suffer with a croaked voice for the following 3 weeks… !!! )

The GD was scheduled to start from 9.30 am but as every government dealings are always late, so was our GD which started from 10.00 am. I was in the first group.. I could feel my heart missing few beats as we were ushered into a nice, big conference room of Mining Engineering Dept. Two executives from CIL were already sitting there to test us. After a brief introduction, we were given a topic and then 5 minutes to think about it. After the 5 minutes, we started speaking one by one, starting with Prashanta Baro (now my colleague in CIL ). After the first round, we were given another 2 minutes where we could add anything more if we wanted to. Here, the executives asked me to conclude the whole thing after the allotted 2 minutes. My heart skipped a few beats again, obviously thinking that yes, maybe I have impressed them with my points/speaking ability.. :) :) After the 2 minutes allotted to each of us ended, I concluded the topic, adding a few more points and as we were exiting- they ACTUALLY said (pointing to me)- “Her GD was the best of the lot.. We liked her speaking way the most..” and one of my batchmates saw, rather peeped, that I had got the highest in the GD.. After coming out of the room, I gave a thumbs up to myself, some people came and congratulated me saying- “You are already selected, they are just impressed by your GD already…” Hearing all these, I could sense a feeling of calmness sweeping all over me but yet the PI was left which was to start at 3pm..